theloveablebiatch

Happy St. Patricks Day! Who is he? They should have a St. Spike Day! B4 school 2day I dragged Hats and Ez to Unwines. Hats bought a swiss roll you no 1 of them family sized ones and ate the whole thing! (and a cheesestring!) AH! Hospital tomorrow! I've decided James can go to hospital, in my movie I mean.) I finally bought my P.E. kit home from school 2day, it's been there since September, ewww! It's clean but still gross much? Oh yeh, Ez's dad has now said she can't have the money for the Britney tickets, I knew something like this would happen. OMG, my mum will be so completley broke if she don't get the money back. I don't thin Ez and Hats realize how serious our familys money problem is. I don't think Ez's parents like me very much, oh well!

Ez got in such a stress 2day coz I told her we wern't in block C 4 da Britney concert, we were in block 12. She started having a go at me... I was like woah, hold up there, you told me to bid for the tickets! And they are better seats than C anyway!!! - Well I think so?
I've had quite a crappy day actually! 1st my mum had a go at me bout my room upstairs. Then Ez had a go at me on the phone. Then we went to see Jill and that wern't exactly a bag full of fun! Then I came on, and ruined my jeans :-( We went to a pub and I didn't like any of the food, so my mum had a go at me again! Oh my life is fun! So now im in bed, listening to Shakira, feeling sorry for myself. You know what? Sod it! Everythings good, its all gravy! I'm seeing James Marsters in like 61 days YAY!!! School is fun atm, with David and Richard.P being there it's pretty, lets say interesting! lol! Hmmm, what lessons do I have tomorrow?... Maths, Science x2, BCS and RS I think. Shit! I have to do my english essay and my Graphics by 2moz! Oh well, I'll do it 2moz! Hmm. I really want to go out with Franky and Lou on Friday, but that would mean Hats and Ez stayin on Friday night, but it's auntie miri's funeral so I don't think they'll be able to! I'll try and find a way! I wanna be able to speak Spanish! I will teach myself (determined face) oooh! my movie I'm writing is coming along nicely lol it's great!!!

OMG! I had work today, and I've come to the conclusion work is hard work! I've been making beds all day, and cleaning the odd shower. I'm not actually working with Hats, she's down on the floor below me. My boss is called Kate (shes quite nice), and my supervicer is called Jackie, she's quite nice too. And I worked with this guy, Stuwart, he's quite fit! I was talking to him and he seemed pretty desent as well! Hopefully I have money now, yay! I have a shift on Sunday at 9am :-( Looks like my busy life just got busier! Oh yeh! Me and Ez are going to see Britney! Yay! On the 4th May I think? I can't wait and we're quite near the front as well!

Wow! where should I start? Me and Ez couldn't get to school coz Faith was ill so she couldn't take us! She told me to use the money she gave me for dinner to get ourselves there, only 1 prob, i'd already spent it! We finaly found sum money and walked down to the bus stop. We waited for like 20mins for a damn bus, and when it finally came, we desided to get off at Tescos lol, don't ask! We stayed there for a while and had breakfast, it was good! Then we missed te bus we were supposed to get but got another one, but we barley had enough money to get on, but we did manage to get to school! Then we got accused of bunking, which I guess we kinda did. Then stupid Mrs. (tho I dont know why anyone would marry that bitch) Badger confiscated my earings - i liked them! End of school - went to town, mum couldn't pick us up so we got a bus back to the nags head and walked back! I've had a fucking shit day and so has Ez, I think she's in a mood with me! Then Hats phoned and told me I started work at Spooky Hall 2moz that was kinda random, so now Ez will have to go home early. Now I feel bad. Oh well!

I got more english essays set 2day, how many are we gonna get?! We get our coursework back 2moz, hope I get C or above! It wasn't very good. I got confused lol oh well! I got B+ for the other piece of coursework, and a C for my oral. Me and Ez are meeting up with David 2moz, ahh!

OMG! lol! Mum was takling me to Ez's and we broke down! Then this limo pulled up and they offered us a lift as a joke lol, the guys in it were well fit!!! Ez phoned David, he is actually a real sweetie. She asked him where he lived, lol and he goes:
David: In a box
EZ: Oh you have a computer in your card board box do you?
D: It's a very expensive cardboard box, it's from sainsburys.
E: Oh you stole it from work did you?
D: Yeh, it has Dratts bannanas on the side.
I mean how random was that? She's meeting up with him on Thursday! Ahhh!

Ahh Ez's asleep bless her lil heart. I was about to say she lk cute, but actually she looks like a bogwashed gerbil lol! Yeh, shes over btw! Spooky Hall called today, so I might have a job, YAY! But I don't want to work there on my own, it'll be scary! hehe! Nah, it should be wicked! No one is on msn :-( Oh yeh I got Joes msn addy lol.

It snowed today! I didn't go to school today cuz I had a stomach bug thing, missed art :-( I love art! That reminds me, I better get started in my drawin of Buffy for Pop Art! I watched Callendar Girls today, it was crap.
Liam insulted me, bastard! He went to watch Lord of the Rings, and I said oh thats crap! Then he started goin on about 'Oh I'm sorry I don't like Barbie, I mean thats your favorite film right, Barbie?' I was like, wots up your ass freak!!!

Hey Ya! Darn it! We got our eviction notice 2day. We have till the end of March! - I thought it had to be at least 2/3 months notice! My mum thinks we'll be gone by the end of June. After I just painted all my room, and everything! :-( Oh yeh, my room is now purple. It was gonna be all grown up and shit, but then I found out we were moving, I thought screw this and now its a buffy room. Get to perv over David and Richard.P at school 2moz :-) I love school.

I have my 1st GCSE mock exam 2moz, apart from I'm not doing it coz I don't do ICT, but hey! I'm just saying. My mum! BITCH! Has taken away all my clothes and stuff, so I took away hers, and hid them somewhere really good! hehe! SHIT! I just remembered I have a cous=rsework deadline 2moz, and I havn't even done it! Oh yeh! We have a new dog called Charlie, shes really sweet but she has issues, like she thinks shes a lap dog wen really shes a big fat heffer! My mum says we're just keeping her till we get her re-homed, but I bet we end up keeping her!

I've been staying in at lunch to do my art work with Amy, yesterday and today, and now Ez and Hats think I'm goin off with her! They're just jealous because, Am doesn't like them. It's just I love Ez and Hats I really do, but there's just the three of us, and I don't feel I always fit in with the two of them. Ez said to me the other day... "I just think you're to afraid to be yourself around us" And that's just it! I am myslef around them, I'm just not who they think I am!

hey! Johns over atm, he came round to see me. He didn't come of his own accord tho, thats whats really pissing me off. I mean my mum had to say to him, "you should come see Emily!" If he don't want to see me, he don't have to you know, I'm really not bothered either way. I'm so tired ahhh! We started Pop Art, in Art today it's so fun!

We had PSE 2day! You know, bout cousework no no no, I mean work experience! We got the forms, and the lady told me to go ahead with the BBC application, but at the same time ignor it and concentrate on something less surreal lol, so I put...

1st - A TV studio
2nd - Adervitising
3rd - Interior Design

I hope I get one of them, I'm giving my form in tomorrow so...

Yay! I had the day off school today! Everyone did, because of the weather! The snow is way deep! Tom and Richard were out, and I have decided I definatley do not like Richard anymore. I mean, I don't like, fanci him anymore, he's just a good mate - most of the time. He's such a show off now and it annoys me, he's like Ez! I went out for a bit but I was too cold so I came back in. Ez has got my gloves little pikey, I be I wont get them back until the summer wen I don't need them, just like my scarf lol.

lol OMG! Richards 16!!! Can't believe it! But then again, I'm 16 this year 2! There's a rumor going round skool that me and Hats are lesbians, er, I don't think so lol! Oh well, it'll blow over in a few days. I had extra German 2day, it went so bad! She said Mr. Nesbit said I have the ability to move up (which I know I do) see I told you I'd prove them all wrong! I'm so glad I didn't drop German, I might have just thrown away a GCSE.
Oh yeh lol! I fell off my stool in science today! I was well embarrassed and I didn't even go red! Maybe I am getting more confident. Spoke to Liam today on msn, he said I should paint my room yellow, but I don't like yellow.

I didn't see david all day luckily. But Ez came over and we were chattin to him on msn, and he shoved the cam down his pants! WTF! We didn't see anything, thak god, but lol! Oh yeh! Mr. Big Ears, confiscated my drink 2day! 'idiot' I remember in Year 8/9 he always used to take my food! And then I saw him later in the day and he goes to me, "oh yeh, and pout, that good!" Oh well. He'll be joining Drusilla in a padded cell soon enough!

My life is beggining to get boring! I never have anything to write anymore! Help me! I'm beggining to want to speak to Liam! I'm getting annoyed when he's not on msn. Idiot! I think I miss him you know?

OMG!!! Me and Hats were talking to David on msn, and he started wanking on webcam, lol. Cringe! It was so funny! He was like are you two wet yet? we were like, er... yeh, NO!!! He's such a minga as well! Ez gave him phone sex! When I see him at school I'm so gonna burst out laughing!!! At least he don't even know who Hats is, he knows me!!!

Ah! I got my english oral 2moz definatley :-( She goes, "Where's your evaluation?" and I was like "I havn't done my oral". Oh well, once it's done, it's done. I had to get up and do a group role play in RS and Science today. (it's not so bad.) Did you know theres 316 days til I'm 16! lol. Megans Guni Pig died 2day! Bridie got it :-( I came home and there was fur all over the living room - or the not so living room, should I say. It wasn't pretty. Then James freaked! But after he calmed down, he got some fur and goes: "I made Megan another one! It's cheap you don't have to feed it and it'll never die!"

OMG!!! I didn't sleep at all last night. Not 1 single wink! John came round - lol his foot is broken and he can't use the crutches). Oh yeh, anyway he came round and didn't go til like 1am and then I just couldn't sleep! I kept falling asleep in my lessons, lol and talking crap in my sleep, cringe! I got out of my english 2day tho, well The Hulk didn't say anything so neither did I. Ez keeps saying I fanci Liam (I dont) and its really anoying! I email him alot coz I have crappy lessons and its fun to piss him off!!! I could never fanci him, could I? Bad Bad Buffy thoughts lol. "Don't think about the evil bloodsucking fiend. Think about anything other than the evil bloodsucking fiend... (girl screams) Thankyou!"

I've decided, if I can't be a set designer, I want to be an Art director in advertising, (gd. money, still very competitive). Better get better in Graphics! I'm not going to school 2moz coz my mum don't think I'm well enough yet! It's so boring at home tho! She is right, I am really ill! I've lost my voice! MINI CHEDDERS! - random coment! I've just been reading one of my mums books, "I feel the fear, and do it anyway" Its great, it talks about your higher and lower self, and it says its a habbit to listen to your lower slef, and basically you8 have to stop and listen to your higer self. Basically think positive!!! Liam still hasn't written bak!

I feel a bit better 2day! Only a bit mind. I emailed Liam like 100 times, he still aint written back, RHUDE!!! lol Oh well. It's funny, I don't like him (most of the time) but i still don't like being ignored. It's not nice!!! I'm downloading the best song atm - L-O-V-E it's da ritz!

Whoops! Missed the Science test!!! Oh well. I wern't at school toay coz I reacted so bad to the jabs! I have a high temprature, a rash, severe back ache, etc. So I have done nothing today except sleep and watch Buffy. My mums "boyfriend" is round. I spose he's ok, it's just I don't trust him you know? I don't want to see my mum hurt. She's really into him and she's only known him like a week! I better get to work on my English :-( I hope if I'm not there on Friday, I won't be the only one n=to do it at the next lesson!

Fuck me! I had my jabs today, Polio, Tetnus and Diptheria! The injection fucking cained! The polio one you had to dink, ppl said it was rly bad, but i didn't think it was that bad! The jab made me feel well crappy tho. I keep getting dizzy spells and headaches. Basically I feel like shit now!

Sorry, but I just have to start by saying: ! 2moz, I'm gona have the crapiest day ever! I mean it starts with Maths. then sumwhere I have my jabs and stuff, and then English where we will be working on our orals, which I really don't want to do! And then, to tie my day up, it ends with extra German! fun! Me being so scared about the orals is a kinda plus, coz I'm so worked up and scared about the orals, the jabs don't seem relavant (2nite anyway).

Hey! My mum grounded me for what happened yesterday with Jack, James and Rich! See, what did I tell you? They ALWAYS get me in trouble, BASTARDS! I went to Anthonys house. They gave me a tiffany style braclett, it's so nice! I love it! It's one of the nicest things I got for xmas. I'm at home now, in bed, it's like 12:44am, and I have maths homework to do b4 2moz. I better do it. Urgh! I don't want to! Atm I'm watching Buffy S1, Cordys such a bitch, love it!!! Oh well better go do my maths

I had a fun day 2day, but we didn't do much. (I'm round Ez's) We watched Bring It On like 100 times, we were learning all the cheers and moves. It was fun! Going to my cousins 2moz, yay! Rich and Jack got me in trouble AGAIN today! Jack and James were running around the house throwing stuff at me and Ez! I got really pissed off liek usual so I chucked Jack out the house, and said if he came back, I'd call his mum! But guess what? He came back with Richard. They kept annoyin us through the window! James threw a stone at us, but it hit a cup and broke it, and then for no fucking reason at all, Jack threw a load of crappy sawdust into the living room. Fucking Idiot! He was so out of order! I'm fed up with them, they always wreck our house for fun! I'm putting up with it anymore!

Ez's over. We went out on the green with, Tom, Richard and Jack. Jack went in, and we got booze, Tom got so pissed but I think he was putting it on a bit. Me, Ez n Rich walked to Tescos at 1:30am, it was actually open this time. We got a lot of strange looks, but it was fun OMG! In the village next to mine, there was a murder! The whole village is sectioned off, and I don't think the murderer was caught, so that means there might be a siko running around here somewhere! And we walked to Tescos, stupid arn't we? Miss Bell End is a fucking freak, she asked us if we masturbated, Em.H is the most innocent person ever and Kim as a joke shouted "Emma Masturbates" and Bell End took it seriously and started asking all these questions and stuff. FREAK!

Went down town today! Ez is coming over 2moz, yay! I'm actually excited bout going round Ez's on saturday, which is good, coz normally i'm not bothered, which isn't rly much fun! I got my mark back for my english coursework, B+ which is good since I didn't even read the whole book. (Jane Eyre). I have to do my English oral exam on Thursday. I'm actually near tears wen I think about it, thats how much i'm dreading it, which is stupid! It's just I go so red, and then I realize i've gone red, so I go even redder, and I really don't know why? I'm such a loser! Oh yeh, Mr. Nesbit said atm I'm a grade F! I decided i'm just going to drop the unenthusiastic act, and just try harder coz I know im capable of a D or C.

Miss Bell End, really has it in for me! It's not even funny. She goes to me and Ez, if your late once more, it will be DT with me for the rest of the term! It's not like we're even late all the time! Jade and Lucy are always late, and she don't say a word to them. And then in assembly me and Ez waited behind to speak to Claire, and she had a go at us! "Blah Blah Blah (to ez) enjoy the rest of your day!" I seriously don't get what her problem is? Oh well.

I went to Madam Tusaurds wit Ez, Hats and Sarah (Ez's step-mum) It was so fun! I had my pics taken with; Buffy, Hugh Grant, J.LO, The Hulk, John Travolta (who is really fat!), and loads of other people. The Chamber of Horrors is really good, well I think it is. Me and Hats went in, and there was this police man who bangged his baton on the railing, and Hats screamed and hid behind me, and we tried walking past him but he followed us, (it was quite funny i was trying not to laugh). Ez and Sarah didn't like it so they went back out, so we did 2. But me and Hats were disappointed. I may be strange but I think the policeman was quite fit, even if he was meant to be a serial killer. Then we went to eat at Garfunkels, and we felt all posh. Then we went round Bond Street, by then I felt so ill. Ez was being kinda horrible 2day, she thought she was being funny I guess, but I didn't think it was. Apart from that I had a great day.

I went to Ez's 2day, well after going to town, to get her bday prezzie, a cocktail set and a mini skirt, which I'm keeping! Hats was at Ez's too coz we are going to Madam Tusuards 2moz for Ez's bday. (Yay I'll get to see Buffy!) Sometimes I don't like Ez and Hats wen they're 2getha, coz they go way hyper, and I don't like them wen they're like that, I just get pissed off. I really didn't wanna go 2 Ez's. (not in a nasty way) but I felt really shitty and I thought, well it's her birthday, and I love her so I don't want to let her down. They just don't get that I'm still not up to mucking around and stuff wen I feel like this.

I was at Hats all morning, coz you no I went to her New Years Eve party last night. I love her house so much. I have two of her tops, and one of Ez's. She is borrowing 2 of my Buffy vids. My mum has said she's finished with John. She has said it before but this time I really think she means it!!! I'm like woah for her, but i dunno... I guess I will kinda miss him. My mum started talking about moving away to like Devon or Cornwall and I REALLY don't want to move, not there anyway! Everytime I think about it, it nearly makes me cry. I'll be usless on my own, no friends or anything :-( If my mum said right thats it, we're moving to CA, i'de be like Yay, but Cornwall? Devon? Nah! I don't want to go! I at least want to finish school here! I only have another year and a half to go! Fucking hell! Before my mum had talked about moving away I'de been SO happy, so positive about this year. 4 gods sake girl, get a bloody grip. Seize the fish!!! Take every day as it comes, and I'll be fine. I'm fine, I'm better than fine, I'm... think of a positive word and I'm that!

Didn't go to freeport 2day, but mum promised to take me 2moz. I went to see Love Actually with my mum and my mums "friend" lil john. He don't like me, he said I'm sassy! I don't even know what that word means, but i will look it up!

I feel like shit! I sware christmas is jinxed! Oh well. I really didn't get a lot this year, but it's ok, coz I know my mum doesn't have a lot of money. I got Buffy season 3, A jumper, Straightners which are crap and I can't tell my mum coz she bought them!

Where are you christmas?
Why can't I find you?
Why have you gone away?
My world is changing,
I'm rearranging, does that mean christmas changes too?
Where are you christmas?
Do you remember, the girl you used to know?
You and me, were so care free
now nothings easy
has christmas changed, or just me?

I have now finsished my xmas shopping completley. I got Vanessa and Rececca a prezzie! I also know i've got Buffy season 3, Yay! I saw it! I'm not excited about xams at all! I miss that feeling :-( I do! Maybe I'll be excited 2moz? I hope I see Richard 2moz!

Didn't go to school today, I'm ill! I kinda need to go 2moz, I have a coursework deadline and I need to pay Becca her money. Only £1.60, but I don't think she can eat 2moz if I don't pay her back, so she's kinda relying on me to be in. Hats agreed to have sex with David! I think she's crazy, she only started talking to him like a week ago! Oh well.

15 days til xmas! There was this tramp sleeping in our bus stop this morning, and wen he woke up, he just picked up all his blankets and left. I was like, well that was random! I slept in sick bay 2day, coz I had a migrane. I just like slept through R.E. - woke up and went to Art.

God, I felt well ill 2day! Jes was being well horrible, she was like, I saw you on Saturday at the cinema and sunday with your mum without your crutches! I was at the complex, but I was on my crutches, Sophie and Megan saw me coz I spoke to them. So fuck her if Jes thinks any dif. I'm jst well pissed off at everyone! I spoke to David on msn 2day, he was well nice!

Hi! John gave me £100 2day! I was like, wow! Includin my allowance and other b.,day money, I now have £205 to spend on clothes!!! Yay!

OMG! Richard gave me a tenner 4 my b.day - how sweet! So this is what i've been counting down to, wow! 15! It doesn't feel any different! My mum gave me £30, Nan - £20, James - £5, Meg - Sweets, Faith - Buffy annuel, Dad - Now 56, Ez - Britneys Album! Ez has decided she likes Rich now, well she can just fuck off!

My b.day 2moz, wonder what i'll get? Ez & Hats migt be cummin ova 2moz. Apparently Johns giving me quite a lot of money! Yay! I really don't want anyone to sing to me 2moz! I hate it!!!!

Went on the most boring, but most fun school trip ever! Cadburys Land!!! The lecture was fucking crap, but free chocolate :-) We were on the radio on the way up there, Ez requested Jamilia Superstar! And they did a shout out to Year 10! Ez is stayin over 2nite!

Well, I did it, lil old me, all growed up! Me and my HB pencil sat our 1st GCSE paper! It was ok but I think I did crap in physics. Oh well, who really needs to know about electricity in the world? ok, wiring a plug might come in handy... ok so I suck!!! I kept thinking about Liam in the exam, I don't fanci him... I don't even like him! Do I? I just kept thinking how the relationship between Buffy/Spike is a lot like the relationship between me and him! Ehh! Life is so screwed up!!!

Ahh! My 1st GCSE 2moz, I hope I do ok! I did kinda revise, so i'll do ok. I have to go to school in a wheel chair :-( PPl are so gonna take the piss. :-( Oh well.

PS: I LUV R.N, R.P, R.M, and R.G - whats with all the R's?

Parent/Teacher night 2moz, help! Nah, I should be fine, I mean I'm a good girl right? lol, who am I kiddin? Stupid Liam and his stupid friend Gareth are coming over on Friday for mums birthday! But Ez will be here so that's ok, and this Gareth guy might be cool? I doubt it tho.

So erm, lets see... what did I do today? Oh, Ez came over, we went to Tescos, she bought loads, she piked £20 off her nan. I think she should stop now! She must of stolen like what, £300 in the last 2 months? I bought James' xmas prezzie. I just got him sum deodrant set in a nice box.

PS: funny website - www.lolfun.com

This week has gone so slowly! We are having a party for Vanessa 2 welcome her home! Yay! I went to a pub, then went for a chinese with, mum, John, and Liam. Frau Brice was at the pub, she even has teacher looking friends!

Liams over, and so far he's been pretty ok, nice even - shock horror! There's this guy in Tesco's who looks SO much like Justin Timberlake, lol! I gotta do my homework 2moz - fun! :-( I wish I had M.E. again, life was easier, and I didn't get homework! - actually I take that back, I never want it again!

Bridie had her puppies 2day! I'm so proud of her. She had 6, 3 girls, 3 boys! They look like boxers, so we're not sure who the dad is. They are so cute and small.

Hey! Hats and Ez stayed over! Me, them and Rich went wondering up to Tescos, but we didn't make it all the way, we had to go back coz Hats and Ez were cold. But we were going to walk down to the service station. Just watching Buffy, Killed By Death. It's still scary now, and Im like 15... well nearly! I feel so soz for the lil kids!

PS: I like so badly like Richard!

Wow, cotey ugly is the best film! Hats is in hospital, having an operation on her arm right now. I feel so sorry for her! It happened coz the other day we were talking about bones and Hats goes "Oh, I've never broken a bone!" lol Well, she has now! Hey wait... I said that too! Ez is coming over on Friday, yay!

I actually enjoyed English 2day , it was fun! I'm gona ask what I got in my test, they were marked at GCSE level, most people got Cs and Ds, oh dear! Becca got 9.5/20 and Ez got 7/20. I hope I did ok! This sounds so bad, but I hope I did better than Ez, dunno why but i'm very competative! My dads a fish! He came over 2day, he asked my mum where her bag was, then he liked demanded to know, he kept accusing her of losing it, and going on about having to cancel all his cards, honestly!

Bridies having puppies!!! Definatley! We took her to the vets today and they scanned her, she's having at least 4, yay!!! I didn't go to school coz 1. headache, 2. bad cold and 3. I would have only been there half a day neway coz I had Physio.

I had the funest day 2day! I had this frube and I gave it to Hats, and I said sumfin and she got excited and hit me with it, and it exploded ALL over her! It was SO funny! Then we got told off by the ugly bald dinner lady, and I just went shut up baldie and walked away, so i've had a funny day! Ez wern't there so it was just me and Hats all day.

I didn't go to the circus in the end! Chickened out! Good job really coz I saw Richard! Him and Jack came over. I'm gona try get a picture of, Tom, Jack, Rich and Claire to remind me of them when I move away. I better go see Claire really, I havn't seen her for ages. I also saw James.S today, he's got well fit. 61 days til my birthday woo! yay! 15!

OMG! 2moz my mum and that are going to the circus. I dnt want to go coz there will be clowns! How gay am I? Yay Rich might come out 2moz! I got it bad! I don't even know why I fanci him... No. I really don't know! lol. Well... I've finsihed my english homework, I had to write about Charlotte Bronte, I tried really hard coz The Hulk will prob drive a stake through my heart if I make one tiny mistake!

Mum took me shopping, I had a great time. I bought this jumper coat thing, a denim jacket, some black trousers and a dress. I also bought Rachel Stevons single, it's da best! I also phoned round some local pubs 2day asking for waiting jobs. So far the best I got was the crown saying they'd get back to me :-(

I've had a great day at school. Me and Ez have been having laughing fits all day! Ez and me were laminating stuff and she put the paper the wrong way round, and it all screwed up, it was funny... you had to be there! Beyonce's album is really good! I feel like I aint seen Rich for ages, but I only saw him 3 days ago, well 2!

OMG! I fell over 2day, in front of the boys. Rich got the ball wet, and jack went to throw it at me, so I walked backwards and stacked it and kinda skidded backwards! I've grazed all my back and hand and it really hurts! - It was funny tho! But they laughed for ages! - it wern't that funny.

Yep! David Blane is a freak! I saw him stting in his glass box. How bored he looked, he just sat there, gave the occasional wave. All those people came to see him, he could have at least danced a lil jig or something! Nothing much happened at G.O.S.H - as always!

I gave John his present, well I left it on the doorstep, but I know he got it! I had so much fun after school today! I got in an apple fight with Rich, Jack and James (but Rich didn't throw any at me!) He is fit!!! Toby goes today, "oh he's not exactly year 11 material, he's so immature!" I'm like, God, maybe Toby should lighten up!!! Why do you have to grow up so fast? I'm just having fun being a kid!

John's birthday 2moz! I'm just gona leave his present on the doorstep, coz i'm too scared to go over there! I got a B+ in my english, which means if I work really hard I am capable of getting an A in GSCE which is good!

Fuck me, how much coursework do you get this year??? Maths is 6 hours long!!! I'm pissed off coz James piked my pen. I told mum and she didn't believe me and 2 win, I nicked his pen! I was forced to give it back! I mean, I'm not bothered about a stupid pen, it's just everyone takes his side for everything! I hate him for it! Urg! English 2moz! Boo hoo!

Went round Ez's 2day. We went to the fair, Jen came too! Ez is SO stupid, she's smoking! GAY MUCH!

I left school early 2day, headache! I had hallusinations! I thought that the skeleton in the E-block was moving!!!
I don't think I told you bout David Blane have I? Well, the guys crazy, he is in a see through box for 40 days and 40 nights, with no food - how bored would you be? I'm gona go see him on thursday!

Mrs. O'Sulivan is such a nice head of year! Way nicer than Miss Brown. I found out by rumor that Jes is bullimic! I would never had guessed! I'm just watching Cruel Intentions! I LOVE IT. Richard made me and James miss the bus, coz we stopped to talk to him while he was doin his paper round!

OMG! School 2moz! Got to see Jodie, she'llprob be pissed with me coz I didn't go to London with her! Don't want to go to English on Tuesday with the teacher from hell! Miss Tulk! She's SO strickt, you practically get a DT for breathing!

PS: I havn't heard from Ez all wkend!

I can't beleieve two years has gone by, since the twin towers were hit! I'm so sorry for all those who lost someone in that! I don't feel like writing anything bout my life on this page, it wouldn't feel right.

I dunno if I told you, but I had pics of my brother in a dress! Well he'd killed the pics! Anyhow I got more!!! lol. I am taking them to show everyone 2moz. Argh! At Brichwood did you know the boys really do have to shower naked! I thought that was a rumor!!!

I havn't seen Rich 4 2 days! Help me, I really like him, do I? I phoned Abby. I really miss her! She's crazy bout Rich too. I started getting jealous! I think that he really likes her! Oh well!!! My god, i've been doing homework for 7 hours, thats not fair!

I have done nothing all day, part from study, well it's important, I intend to go up in maths, because at the moment the highest grade I can get GCSE is a c, I need a B to get into boys high!

PS: I hope I see Rich 2moz.

Richard and that came round. Jack and Rich broke the bed!!! My god I love em and all but I just WISH they would be a bit more respectful! I mean you don't see me going round there's and wrecking their house do you? NO!!! They are out of order sometimes! But hey, thats guys for you!

My god! The day has finally ended! It was great to see all my mates, but the day felt like it went on forever! We had our photos taken at school, I looked well bad! Oh well! I saw Rich after school, he gave me and James a lift back from the bus stop! He looks so fit in his uniform. My bro got mum to wait with mom at the bus stop! So gay! At break today this weird kid with big teeth asked me if Rich was gay, I was like er, no!

Didn't see my brother this morning, I wonder how he's doing. OMG! He'll see Rob at school, he could make my life hell, I wonder if he's worked that out or not? You know I envy Claire, I saw her with James, it's nice, the way he and her are, i want that! Not him!!! That, just that thing they have, I want it with someone.

The weathers fuckin freezing. I'm so bored!!! Richards outside at the mo. You know I really can't work him out. I think most of the time he's pretty nice, but then some days he is such a pig! Normally when he's with Tom or Jack or his mates! Then I hate him! But whenever he's nice I end up fancing him!

I went to this crappy car boot sale, and I froze!!! I made a couple of £'s! We came home, and all I did was go out with the others and play man hunt, cricket and football. I met the new kids, they are well posh! Well what do you expect! They do have 2 kittens tho, they are well cute.

Buttons didn't go today, the people couldn't pick her up, so they are coming 2moz. Anthony and that came round today. Ants well tall now. My auntie has had her hair cut it looks well nice! Ez came round and we snuck out and sat on the green, at 3:30AM. And we saw a UFO!!! I sware it was, it was this green light, it was well fast and it was moving up and down side ways, it can;t have been a plane!!!

I just found out that we are selling Buttons, and she going tomorrow!!! I'm going to miss her and that :-( I know I don't like ride her, but I go down to the stables and talk to her, I know that sounds really gay but I got close to her... and poor floyd, he's going to be so lonley!!! Ez is coming over tomorrow, we are going to H20s again on Tuesday. I'm looking forward to it, it's the only 1 I will have gone to this holiday. I can't wait till school starts coz i'm bored.

I'm home now! I supose it's good to be back, can't wait to see Richard, Jack and yeh I spose Tom aswel. I can't beleive I just wrote that! Liam is over and so far I havn't been horrible but then I havn't exactly been nice either! I listened to Eves album 2day, it's really good.

We didn't do much today, my head really hurts, and is getting worse. I'm actually getting worried! Oh well! We went into town then we went to the beach. Ez hurt her foot, and she way over reacted. I'm watching Emerdale, and the Charity/Kane relationship is alot like Buffy/Spike. Just got back from a really nice restraunt. I've had a rly nice time here, but I just can't wait to sleep in my own bed. Ez bought me sum shag bands! If they brake you have to shag the person that broke em lol.

What did I do today? rm, oh yeh we went swimming in this carppy ass pool, but i spose it was quite fun! Then we went to this gold place. that was boring, but me and Ez painted this pot marmaid, it was fun. Yeh ok so i'm gay leave me alone. I'm watching young, posh and loaded! I wish I had money :-(

We went to the cinema 2 c American Wedding, it's so good. i've seen in twice now! Then we went on a ghost walk, showing us all the haunted places where we were and stuff! It was well good and the tour guid was fit haha and he had a spike coat on! hehe ;-)

2day we went 2 the beach! It was a nice day, I got a bit sun burnt, I swam in the sea even though it was freezing. Ez didn't swim much! Then we dug a big hole, sad i know! OMG! We had this take-away pizza, we sat down to eat it and this seagull landed on Ez's head and nicked the slice she had in her hand, then like 50 came and ate it all! These boys came and saved us they threw sand at them! It was really funny. I bought some playboy earing today.

Still havn't surfed, I can't beleive Ez lied to me! She said that Sara had booked a course and everything! I'ma bit pissed bout that, but i'm still having a good time! We just went to a seal sanctuary, the seals were well cute! One had brain damage and Ez said it reminded her of me, thanks! We went to the beach too, we paddled in the sea, well we both got soaked but hey! it was fun!

Went shopping 2day bought a bag a mini one which says "punk" on it, and a banana moon sticker, and some lil hoops! I havn't been attacked by a seagull yet, luckily! 2moz i'm going to buy this well nice top, it says bitch...moi? very appropiate i thought lol. I really miss Rich, even though he was being a right jerk b4 i left! And no, i dnt fancie him... i don't think. Anyways prob going to the beach 2moz!

I'm at the appartment now, it's really nice! I would love a flat like this when i'm older. I'm scared of the seagulls, they have attacked people before! Me and Ez are planning to go wondering 2nite!

I'm at Ezzies now, going to Cornwall 2moz morning, going at like 4AM. I'm not excited, but hey, thats just me! I don't want to get up that early. Only 5 hours to go!

I'm writing this because it's not as if I can do anything else as our group has fallen apart. Jade and Lucy go off 2getha. Amy used to be a really good mate of mine but she's changed and i don't like her anymore. Ez and Hats are great mates but I can't help feeling that they are complete losers. Abbys moved school. Jenny and Beks driffted off and Becca don't like me at all, i don't know why.

Went to Grt. Ormand Street. It was da same old thing, but i'm discharged from physio. Yay!

I stayed on the green till midnight saying bye to charlie and harriet, they're leaving for auzzie 2moz morning. :-( I'm going to miss them so much! Maybe I can go visit them.

hows you? I went to a wedding today, they're so boring! The party afterwards wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't had this bloody headache. Danielle was there, we hung, it was cool! Ezzie's let me down again, you know I like her and everything but she messes you around like crazy!

The day was so screwed up! I was meant to go 2 H20s with Hats and Ez, but wasn't allowed, so already my day fucked up! Then I went round to Ezzies house and we watched Cruel Intentions! I WANT THAT FILM! OMG! I saw Rob today, he is so fi! I love him! Well Ezzies over mine now, bye x

It was Beccas birthday 2day! Becca and Abby are having a joint party 2moz and they didn't invite me! :-( oh well. Me and Abby are good friends, so it must be Becca that don't like me! So what! I'm going out with Jodie anyway! we're going to watch Bruce Almighty! I hope I get in, it's a 15!

I went to my old primary skools, summer fete, I saw Matt, Luke, Simon and a few of the girls! Luke and Matt are kinda fit, pitty Joe wern't there :-( Oh well! When I got back, I layed football, I think I fancie Richard.

I am sleeping round Ezzies tonight. Jennys here too! I gave them the braclets I got them from Spain. I had fun 2day, we made cakes and we went to town and we played truth or dare.

I got so pissed last night, it's the first time I didn't remember coming home, and it's the first time i've been sick! I'm home now! From Spain I mean. The weather is crappy but hey, it England! I missed Rich, I can't wait to see him!

Just swam today, but it was so hot! 2 hot!!! I miss Richard, maybe I do like him a bit! But he's like one of my best friends. This holiday is starting to get boring coz all we do is hang round the hotel!

Didn't do much today either! Well holidays are for relaxing arn't they? So I just hung with Harry Potter, by the pool. My mum just made a complete pratt of herself dancing. OMG im dead embarrased!.

PS: The fit watersports dude is called Elmo!

I went canooing in the sea 2day, it was fun! But then I went with Liam and he tipped me off! I HATE HIM!!! so much! Why can't anyone understand that! My mum said give him a chance! They all think me hating him is one big joke, but i'm dead serious!

I didn't do much today! I just chilled by the and in the pool. I chatted to this well fit Spanish boy, his name is pepito or sumfin and he's 15! And he speaks english :-) I couldn't swim in the sea coz there woz loads of jellyfish!

OMG! I had to get up at 4AM 2day to go to the airport. So i'm dead tired. The hotels nice, and the watersports person is even nicer! hehe! He is well buff! :-p

I'm ill. I left school early today, migrane, so naturally i came home and watched buffy! (in bed) "can't even shout, can't even cry, the gentle men are coming by. lookin in windows, knocking on doors, they need to take 7 and they might take yours! Can't call for mom, can't say word, you're gonna die screaming but you won't be heard!" Scary aint it?

Yay! I have finally met the love of my life, (spike) he shook my hand, and kissed me, he's so nice! I LOVE HIM!!! Just watching him on the tv, it's just so weird seeing him, it's like just met him, and Giles!

It wasn't that good 2day, but I might be able to go again on Sunday when Spike will be there. He wasn't there today :-( But I did buy loads of stuff! My dad bought me a nightie, I bought a poster, sum floppy discs and other stuff... anyway!

yay I can't wait! 2moz I'm going to the Buffy thing! My dad is coming with me coz no one else can come :-( Just think? This time 2moz I will have met James Marsters! I feel so bad for Ez atm, she's going through a rough time with her family.

Amy is being a total bitch! I hate her so much, but she doesn't even get that I don't like her! We didn't do much today, we went in the pool and this fit guy set up a disco for us! 2moz we are going to the perfume factory!

I'm on the coach, 21 hour journey, boo hoo! We are watching Bring it On, then watching Legally Blonde! I love both of them films! I'm gonna get them on video! I will be travelling on the coach all through the night, I wont get any sleep :-( and I need it!

Oh shit, I havn't packed yet. I can't wait, 14 hours and i'll be getting on the coach to France. It was Faiths party today. Richard came round. I do fancie him! Ezzie noticed and can you beleive it, so did Megan! SHIT!!!

Jenny still isn't talking to me. I'm sure it will sort itself out, hopefully. My mum is going to take me to town 2moz just to get some more stuff for France! Just some more underwear and suncream and stuff like that. I don't want to go to D.T. 2moz I hate it!

Jenny is in a mood with me, coz someone told her what I said about her clothes being babyish, but they arn't any more. I said they used to be, but she looked so stunning at H20s the other night. Oh god!

Yay i'm home! I had fun, but it's nice to be back home! I kind of missed the others, well Richard anyway, but I don't fanci him! I went to Tony & Brendas 40th wedding aniversary! God, i can't beleive it, 40 years! I think I would get bored with my partner by then lol. Oh well, I don't want to get married anyway!

I went to the beach today with my nan. She bought me a skirt, a top, and a bikini! I didn't really get a tan, coz we spent most of the time in the shops, lol!

I'm at my nans. I'm going home on Saturday. It should be fun? She's already taken me shopping and we are going to the beach tommorow! Yay, I can get a tan! Or burnt :-( Megans birthday 2moz, oh well I won't be there. Bye Bye.

I had the best time at H2os! I didn't pull but so, I actually spoke to Rob!!! God he is fine! I wore a black top, and white trousers. Just downloading stuff of Kazza atm! Oh yeh, and when we were all leaving Rob said, see you at the next one! Oh I love him so much! I was trying to forget about him, well that didn't work. Joe was there too, he's a minga, don't know what I ever saw in him. The next one isn't for like 2 months :-(

Hi! Ezzie is round and so is Richard! He's acting well weird! BLAGH! We are planning to sneak out and go to Tescos, at 3am I think? I'm starting to fanci Rich again lol Nerg!

Just watching Buffy, I really don't want it to end! Waa! :-( I tidied my room today and put more posters up! I have this one of Holly Vallance, I hate her, she's so pretty! Rebecca is round :-(
Ezzies pissed off with me coz I can't sleep round hers, but it's not my fault im ill! I'm pissed off coz Amy is being a bitch!!!

I did go to school today, but i went home early. Well actually I went into town! My mum booked our holiday! We're off to Majorca! Yay! I can't wait! She also bought me a bra - it's really nice! I also got some new trainers, rebock ones - blue! They are ok I guess.

I went to grt. ormand street today. It was a waste of time, but they said they would sort my knees out, which is good! Liam is over, i really am starting to hate him!!! Seriously I mean it! I hate him!!!

I felt well ill today! I just watched my new Buffy videos I bought off the internet. I spoke to Amy today, she was well nice and randomly bought me a huge poster of spike! Amy fancies Liam, how funny is that? I'm texting him at the moment, he's telling me to act more like a lady!

I had science SATs today! They went fine, the afternoon paper was well hard though. I couldn't do hardly any of it, who cares? There was this one question that was talking about how if you drank acid, it cured scurvy and at the bottom it said, please do not try this at home. i burst out laughing and had my paper removed from me, couldn't do it anyway!

Abby came round and we went to this May Fair thing. It was crap, but i ate two bags of candyfloss and went loopy. It was like being tipsy on sugar! Then we climbed the tree la la i'm so happy nrg! Hey! I'm allowed to go to the Buffy convension, i got tickets and everything! Me and Hatty are going, I really can't wait! Tom came out today and he was being nice again, strange bean. Maybe it's coz he knows i don't like him and he's tryin to make me like him again, who knows?

All i've done today is play footie and go up the airport with, Adrian, John, Liam, Nat and Andy in the pikey bus! Oh get this! John said he would pay for my tickets to the Buffy convension. Yay! I can't wait! Hopefully they won't be sold out! I'm going to ask Hats if she wants to come! Oh I hope I can go! la la la i'm so happy! James Marsters will be there he's so fit, la la la! I went for a chinese today, it was good, but i think i ate something dodgy stomach, Blargh Nergh!

I'm depressed! I really wanna go to this Buffy convention but it's well expensive, I would kill to go! I really wanna go, they have a photo session, autographs, speeches, and a party! never mind! I went to grt. ormand street, it was boring like always, then i came home and played footie with the others!

2day was my last day of school, before S.A.Ts, gulp! No actually I'm not worried, on sunday monday i'll prob be revising like hell, but atm im just kicking back, i mean the sats don't even mean anything, so i'll deal!

I have to try and sleep 2nite coz I was so tired at school i fell asleep in music. Ms. Fosters being a bitch about the residentials. She is such an old hag! I hate her! She doesn't even know me! I'm having a party for Vanessa to say goodbye. That will be fun! But i'm going out with Jodie! I need money!

Back to School! Yay! (not!) Uh, I wish school would blow up or something at the weekend, so we could have a couple of months off, how cool would that be? I'm going out Friday night with Jodiel, we are hopefully going to meet Rob in town! I dunno what I'm going to say to him, hi might be a good start!

Oh my God! When I was at the cinema for hats party, I saw Rob and I showed the others who he was. So what do they go and do? "Oh, my mate fancies you!"I looked awful aswel! Oh but god, he's so fit I LOVE HIM, I LOVE HIM! The film was goo, i'm gonna get it when it comes oyt,how to loose a guy in 10 days! I hope I see Rb again soon!

PS: He smiled when they tld him I fancied him!

Tom and Rich were still being anoying today. I really don't know what i've done, but i must of done something. I hate being left out, i'm just not used to it, lol! Liam came over today, it's so good to see him, (not!) I hate him! He is so anoying like a brother!
I love Rob I can't sop thinking about him!

Amy couldn't come 2 town coz she had to look after her brother. I went with Faith, she showed me what she wanted for her Birthday prezzie. I got her a photo frame, and me a book of spells and some buffy top trumps.
When I got back I went to see Tom and Rich but they were being really mean, dunno what i've done? It don't really matter, I can do without a couple of loser friends. I mean how sad are they, they were making a little hut thing. I went to knock for claire she had her BF round but she came out all the same! I saw John today, he said he would take me boxing. Hey its not kickboxing but I guess it will be fun!

I was so bored 2day, all i did was talk to ez, and amy onhe phone and jade, hats and lucy on msn, and play on the megarive with Tom, Jack and my bro. Hopefully i'm going boxing on tuesday with john since kickboxing has fallen through. Well that's not entirely true, I have the kickboxing tornament on Sunday! Then thats it! I'm not doing it anymore, coz my teachers moving, boohoo! I went and knocked for Richard he didn't come out, but he is well tanned! Omg! There is a big bug in my room help me!!!

I talked to Liam today, he is coming over at the weekend! boo! no, i do actually miss him just the slightest bit! but i'm not gonna let it show. I went to Anthonys house today, we took Bridie and i got another easter egg off them!

Liam is leaving today. Megan and Faith were crying, it was so funny! I kind of feel srry for them. Dee came over today with her kids. She said I could get a tattoo by drawing on myself the design i want, getting a tan, then washing the pen off, but it would be white. Liam let me watch Buffy before he went, which was nice of him i supose. I'm going on holiday with him in the summer hols. He will prob kill me. We don't know where we're going yet but it's probably a Spanish or Greek island. I wanna go to cyprus!

We had a BBQ today! I met these two new guys called Nat and uh... oh yeh Andy. Nat seemed nice! He's 20! I don't have much to say apart from Liam kept beating me up. And I hate Fat Chris, and I'm in love with Rob! I sun bathed in my garden, I have a slight tan, woopeeh! I need to buy some earings, I also need to start revising, for S.A.T's.

It's such a nice day today! We went out for lunch. John took us! Amy and Becca came too! It was so fun! hehe, i'm so happy la la la! I don't know what to write apart from I have fallen in love with the cook, he is 16 and called James! Maybe I could get a job there! hmm?

I went to H2o's, it was so cool! Rob was there, but I was too scared to say anything to him, afterwards when he was on his own. I went over to talk to him, i was just about to say hi, and my stupid mother decided to show up! it's not fair! Rob is my target! I have to pull him! I will make that my mission!

My mu has taken my allowance away coz she thinks I stole £20 and I didn't, she has also banned sweets and chocolate as punishment! Like I care, but I need my money! Oh yeh? Someone is stealing money from me, taking all their money away from them is really gonna help, isn't it??? I may not be able to go to H2os now. Actually Ezzie owes me £3 so she can give me that. Then at least I can get in, I'll just get boys to buy me drinks all night!

We walked to tesco's at 10.00pm, me and Amy took the road way and Richard and Liam went the field way in the dark! I bet Tom wouldn't have come, he would have been too scared! Amy told Rich I fancied him, which I don't really, not anymore. Rich asked Amy out, but she said no! Amy fancies him tho, im confudled!

I went to the hospital today and they said i was overweight! So I have to loose a little bit of weight! Amy is coming round 2moz, yay!
I couldn't watch Buffy round the bungalow, coz they wanted to watch walking with cavemen, gays!

Just watching Buffy at the mo. I'm so jealous of her, she gets to pull spike. I wish i was her! I've got so much revision to do for saturday, i havn't done any yet! I better revise science. I should be getting level 6 and I only just scraped a level 5. Im not so worried about Maths, coz I can't revise that very well. And I think I'll fly through English, the average level is 5/6 and i'm getting 7/8 - get me! I'm taking my cam corder in skool for R.E., so i'm gona film all my mates! It will be fun!

The skin test didn't hurt at all, and you can hardly see it. Unlike the scratches i have all over my face, arms and legs from falling out of a tree. They hurt!
I really am so fat now! I need to loose weight, before thursday if i can! Otherwise the hospital will think im fat.

I didn't do much today, in the sense i didn't see anyone. Me, Megan, Mum, Faith and Liam ttok Bridie for a walk and then we went riding. I had a go on buttons. Fat Chris ate the rest of Liams birthday cake, there was over half of it left! But to get him back, me and liam are going to make a cake and put laxatives in it! Try stealing that! You'll be sorry! hehe. I have my BCG skin test at 10:40 2moz. I have a phobeia of needles so i can't eat anything b4 i have it or i will throw up! Bet you any money I faint!

My mum has gone out, and i'm babysitting. I'm going to sleep now though i'm so tired! I played footie with, Rich, James, Jack, Ezzie and my dad. I cought Ez out. She used to go on and on about how good she was a football but she's crap! I'm even better than she is! She kept showing off in front of Richard today but I don't think he even noticed.
I don't know whether i fanci richard or not, lets put it one way. If he asked me out, i wouldn't say no. but he never ever will so it's not an issue.

Today I had extra German at school while everyone else had French! The lady spoke German and I didn't understand, she did these funny actions and i still didn't understand, then she drew pictures and well... she couldn't draw so i still didn't get it! I played cricket after school with Tom, Rich and Jack and James. It was fun, apart from Rich bowled the ball and it hit mer in the face, and it really hurt. I think I am starting to like really fanci Richard, help! hehe!

I had a good day today! Hatty came round and she wanted to meet Richard, she thinks he's fit which he is! I was starting to fanci him, but he was being so gay yesterday i think i've changed my mind. Me and Hats went to see Maid in Manhatten, it's really good! Earlier we started making this kind of den thing, it's quite good. I just enjoyed kicking the wood til it broke. I'm at Hattys now, her house is the best It has three floors!

Ezzie came over today, we went into town and then she came over! We made a go cart, but Liam tried killing us! He pushed us down a hill but we worked out a way to steer it, so we won!

I spent most of the day round the bungalow today, and now my mum has gone out again and im stuck here babysitting again! I was meant to be going round Ezzies tonight but I couldn't!
Liam is over at the moment and i'm watching cross roads, it's okay. The guy in crossroads is quite fit but he has a weird nose!

Abby, Ezzie, Hatty and Amy have fallen out, it's so stupid! Amy is being a bitch at the moment. Hatty and Ezzie wrote her a note to try and make up and she just ripped it up and she won't even talk to them!

I said I had an inset day and got the day off school. So I spent my fun filled day playing the sims and walking Bridie. I feel kind of sick! Maybe it was the pancake I made today, bannana and peanut butter, it was actually quite nice!
Yay! tomorrow i get to watch season 7 of Buffy round the bungalow. I had the nicest dream last night, I married Spike from Buffy, anyway I havn't got anything to say... bye!

We closed early today so me and Ezzie went round town, I bougt a really nice thong and a braclet, a hair brush and a poster. Ezzie came back to mine and we ended up having a water fight with people from the bungalow! Liam is actually quite nice, he's 18 and a contractor. He said I could come round and watch sky when i have my half days!
Ezzie didn't get time for pancakes in the end coz she went home before we had time to make them. Liam thinks he's so good at everything! 2morow i'm going to fast for 40 days for lent, it's an excuse to diet.

Me, Amy, Jack and Richard walked to much hadham today. I wasted my money at the spar and then we played truth or dare. I think I'm starting to fanci Richard, which is a bad thing! It started at my mums party!
At the ford! My trainers got chucked in the river and now they are gone forever! Never mind, they were my old trainers anyway. I need to buy a new ariel 4 my TV, coz I kinda melted my other one.
I finally have my sleeping tablets from grt. ormand street so lets see if they work? Night Night!

It's half midnight and i'm just chillin out, watching t.v and eating cheese! I tried waxing my legs earlier and it fucking caned! I won't be doing that again, shaving every day is fine! I went round Ezzies today. I'm not such a fussy eater anymore, Ezzies step-mum cooked spagballs and i never eat stuff like that!

So that's it! The rest of my life started, my sheet handed in, can't change it now. I'm reallytrying hard at school now, the options made me think about my life. I better make my handwritting neater. So this is it, I might not be going out on Friday, im watching this film with Hugh Grant in it and sum French girl on a boat, anyway it's midnight so i better go to sleep.

I am in bed coz I had to go to bed! It's 3:30am so technically its the 22nd but hey! Was the party today, it was wicked! I got slightly pissed but not really. Rich, Jack, Tom and Claire came. Charlie and Harriet didn't turn up. Vanessas brother has turned into a goth, just think, i used to fanci him. I kinda started to fanci Richard today but i think that might have been the booze altering my brain. I think Chris' mate Tom is well cool. He had his hair up in little pont tails, he looked well good! Oh, i wanna go down stairs, it's not fair. I still have booze, i have a bottle of WKD under my pillow and a bottle of smirnoff ice, I'll save them for a rainy day!

I went to chelmsford with Ezzie and her mum today. Ezz's mum kept criterzinsing the way Ez looked. I felt sorry for her. I bought some hoops, only I tried to change my earings and I can't get the backs off. Never mind! I really shouldn't change them yet. I'm wondering whether to wear my skirt to the party 2moz, but i don't know. I hate skirts, plus I have a huge bruse on my leg, from where Rich hit me with a stone trhe other day. Help! There is something at my window, it's only 11:30pm. I'm at home now, I had a good time at Ezzs though part from shes not allowed to come to the party 2moz.

After hours of being bored, I went to Ezzies house. I stayed at her dads house. I was still kind of bored at hers, but we made these Buffy pictures. My mate Hatty has got her hair cut like Buffy, I personally don't think it'll suit her. Ezzie is crazy bout Buffy, but she makes it look sad coz she's got pictures of Buffy all round her room I don't even go that far! And she only likes it coz me and Hatty like it, coz wenever i ask to watch it she goes 'no, lets watch friends!' She gets up my wick sometimes.
I had this really weird dream last night about Tom and Rich. I dreamt I asked Rich out (never gona happen) he said no coz he was gay with Tom, actually it was quite funny.

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Didn't tidy my room today, didn't know where to start, it's such a tip! I think this is the messiest it's ever been! I was ment 2 go to the cinema with the group today, but mum said she'd take me to lakeside so i cancelled and then my mum changed her mind and didn't take me so I was stuck at home. I asked her to take me to the news agents and she said NO! And then she went out, and now i'm stuck babysitting! it's not fair! I wonder where my mum is, it's 2:30am?

Valentines day 2moz! I already got one card but I don't know who it's from, i got it in the post... but no boys no my adress? I threw it in the bin anyway. I'm sending a card to Rob and James Marsters. Oh I love him! I only need £7 then I can get my highlights. I'm writing to Joyce at the clinic, i'm not sure why. Things have just got really bad at the moment. I think maybe she can help, i dunno? I hate life!

I went out with Jodie 2day. I went out 4 a chinese and then we went out and got pissed! We went down Havers Lane and met Sam and Charlotte, they had some gear. Me and Jodie didn't have any at 1st but we did in the end. it was wiked! It literlary felt like you were floating everywhere, u couldn't feel anything. You go off into your own little world, amazing. I wont make a habit of it though coz i'm not messing up my career when im older.

Jade couldn't stay over, but I still went down trinity. Jade was paraletic! She was unconcious it was so bad! loadsa people called an ambulance, but she didn't want it! We had to hide her, Flem and Dave had to carry her. Then later the pigs came down to the park to check up on her, but we just said she'd gone home! I just started talkin to the policeman about his handcuffs lol, I didn't get pissed 2night, never mind!

Today was so boring. I had to go to Grt. Ormand Street, just when I thought I was back in school full-time, they say I have to miss 2 afternoons a week! Mum also dragged me round the British History Museum it was SO BoRING!!!

Susannah asked Rob out for me, but he ouldn't remember who I was!!! Never mind! I don't actually mind not having a bf. I can do wotever I want, or anyone u no, no strings attached. I had kickboxin 2day, it was quite good, part from I went to kick the bag and missed and kicked Tony my teacher in the balls, ooops!

I ahd the best day of my lufe! It snowed so school was closed coz the roads were really bad - evryone was out on the green! We had a snowball fight. Then me and Vanessa went to town, we walked all the way there and back! We took the gogs, everyone loved Bridie! Then I went to my cousins house, I got my xmas prezzie of them, Blues Album, a body art kit and £20 for my birthday! We went out to TGI Fridays. It was cool. Ants coming over in half term.

I've been sent to my room coz I smashed a plate over my sisters head! She deserved it! Hate it here!!! We were talking about whether we are good at hiding our feeling at school yesterday. I would say I am, well either I am, or no one notices me at all. I'm upset atm but I don't show it. James on the other hand is really bad at hiding his feelings. He has to go see a councellor. The only time I'm not upset is when i'm with my mates, as soon as I come home i'm misarable again. I wish ppl on the green would come out more often! I aint seen em for ages. I aint seen Richard since my party and Charlie I havn't seen since like October! I kinda miss em!

I am soooo fat! If I don't loose weight i'm going to end up looking like Charlotte Buxom! If I stop eating then i'll loose weight, and make money! I've worked out I'll make an extra £10 a week if i skip skool dinners, and I'll loose weight 2! My mum said it's just coz i'm about to grow taller and then i'll loose weight again. She said that's the way i've always grown!
I've set up MSN on my computer now, so I can talk wenever. I started kickboxin again today, I can't wait till next time! I'm green belt now :-) I am actually quite strong wen I want to be. I unched myself the other day to see how hard I could punch and I really hurt myself! And I kicked a hole in the wall in the P.E. department.

I went swimming today with Vanessa. We are going to go every sumday if I can afford it! I've got swimming with school 2moz aswel!
I really want to move out, I just want to run away from home, my mum and dad are always arguing, maybe I could go up to my nans? I've got to stop and cheer myself up, i've started lieing and shop-lifting again. Maybe if my dads would just piss off!!! If my dad moves back in, i'm defo moving out! I would live on the streets to get away from him. My friends won't help or support me, yeh Ezzie will, but the others don't want to know, biuyt my problems. Maybe if I get back into school, get my self-confidence back, and get a boyfriend I'll feel better!

Hey hey! I've managed to do a full week at school! I'm all happy coz I got my art ROA 2day, I git an A, and my teacher said he wants me to take GCSE art! I am so gonna work hard at school now and at home too. It's just I hate it here, at school i'm so happy, but as soon as i get home im miserable. Eveyone shouts at me for no reason! Like atm, I'm grounded! I'm always grounded! Mum said I couldn't go out coz i was grounded but i got a bus to trinity anyway! I've thought bout running away so many times, but i'd never know where to go!

Had maths today, I'm still not allowed to move down :-( I got a B for my ROAs, I'm quite pleased! I'll be disappointed if in yr. 10 I dont get into the top sety for english. I actually listened in science today, and you know... it's not actually that boring! I might listen more often. Oh yeh! I got an A for this smoking thing we did! I spent hours on this like long informative magazine and Bengie pissed on it! I did another one quickly b4 skool, took me 10 mins and I got an A :0) Maybe if I did actually work at school, i'd do better!

We have to choose our G.C.S.E options by the 26th of Feb. For fuck sake! Im only 14!!! I have to take English, Maths, Science, PSHE and P.E. :-( And I have to take either French or German. Think it'll have to be German coz I've not done that much French! I'm taking Graphics for my D.T. and my 5 options are:
1. Business Studies
2. Art
3. R.E.
4. Drama
5. Business Communication Studies.

I want to be a barrister or an interior designer... or a childrens presenter! From now on i'm going to try harder in school.

Went to school all day today, yay! - sort of! It's 1:08am I have just finsihed my homework. I had science, and R.E. It has taken me ages! Spose I did watch tv a lot but still! I'm gona try really hardnow i think im back full-time. no more DTs or chewing patrol, i hate that! it;s gross and im sure illegal! I'm doing ok in english i guess i got B level 6 in my ROAs, but im disappointed it's not an A coz i do actually try in english :-( I'm pleased with my level tho coz most people only got 4!

We wen to Auntie Maggies funeral today. I'm starting to get travel sickness! I hate my dad! He always interupts me and never listens. And he always takes James' side. Hatty, my mate, hates my bro! She's started callin him siko saville, lol which i think is funny.